In the midst, breathing

It's been a while. Life has been rather crazy. I've always felt that the two month stint from January - March (spring break) felt the longest and most depressing. For one, it's the longest time at CU without a holiday. Two, the weather is oh-so-cold-and-dreary. Three, you don't have the summer vigor to run off of.

Yet, despite the spring semester's cons, and my busyness, I've really enjoyed myself. Little thoughts keep popping into the back of my head saying, "This is it. This is the last semester. Don't waste your time. Invest wisely." And it's true. I'll never be at college or experience this phase of my life again. The last thing I want is to look back at this semester and kick myself for wasting it.

I think, first, about my many close acquaintances here at school - those people I don't necessarily hang out with regularly, but see often and attend classes with. These are the people, after this May, I will probably never see again. Thank the Lord for facebook. In all honesty, it's the only reason I have one - connection.

I think, secondly, about my closest friends. The girls I have lived with for all three years, and a few along the way; the guys I've known, eaten meals with or played sports with. Yes, these, I'll probably see again. But oh-so-infrequently compared to the daily, no, hourly, interactions I have with them now. I ask myself, "Do I treasure them? Do I value them? Do they know that I love them?" I know this might sound a little like someone is going to die, lol, but truthfully, the "college split" is very unnatural, and not something, I think, God at all intended for relationships. At what other time in life does one break from their entire social, spiritual, environmental and "work" life and have to completely recreate and start afresh. Granted, some things are consistent, thank you Father for that, but many things aren't. I know I'm not the only one going through this and feeling this way, and yes, we will all make it through, but I think it'll be hard for everyone. Not that this fact is depressing. We should always live fully in the moment; we are called to. I look forward to enjoying every day left at college, and then, when it is time, letting go and seeing the places God will lead me next - places I both know and don't know.

As for now, however, I am enjoying my spring break - reading, napping, exercising, seeing friends, loving on my family, thinking, enjoying life and breathing. :)